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Intoxiblilities
by Jason Vanderlaan

I.
Intoxication: possibilities.

But I am under no delusion
that I would leave behind
even a single broken heart
if I walked away.

Though I do wonder
what might happen
if I stayed.

II.
A jump-start desire –
No follow through,
though I can lay out each step.

What matters though
is not her laugh
(or even her)
but that I spoke
what was in my head.

Intoxication. New frontier.
New self.

III.
New confusion.

Because all the while
I feel like a betrayer,
unfaithful
for every sip. Sweet.

The path splits, splinters
and I’m still looking
for one,
which one?

Have I become the culprit
for enjoying this moment?

Intoxication.

 

© 2008